Thursday, October 21, 2010

Widdle, Waddle

And the wonders of Photoshop.  God bless it. 

Losing all this weight, certain jiggly bits have appeared. I've never been ashamed of my body, I always exuded a lot of self confidence, but as I've lost the weight I've become more reserved in my approach to everything.  Waddle included, I now feel the need to Photoshop so I know how I'll look after I have plastic surgery on the arms....
This morning, I had a new experience.  I tried on a beautiful dress at Saks Fifth Avenue.  It was a new high.  I've never experienced anything like it before.  As a fashion forward teen, I really loved clothes, but I could never fit into anything except Lane Bryant.  It was a dream come true to me to be in Saks and have an associate say to me, "You're a size 8 on top."  I swear to you, the look on my face had to have been priceless.  I didn't believe her, but I did... but I didn't.  I knew that I was around a 10 or 12.  But still, never in my life have I had those words uttered to me and never did I think it would happen.  It has, and I'm pretty darn happy about it.



Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Jalapeno-Lime Vinaigrette with Avocado and Boiled Shrimp

Jalapeno-Lime Vinaigrette 

Juice of 1 lime, 1 tsp. garlic, 1 whole jalapeno deseeded and finely sliced, 2/3 c. olive oil, 1/4 c. rice wine vinegar, freshly cracked black pepper and sea salt, to taste. Blend all ingredients for 30 seconds

Sliced Avocado

Boiled Shrimp

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Spanx Revolution

My dear friend Emily has reminded me of the miracle of Spanx.  Yes, I know I should never have drifted away, but when you're losing lots of weight you sometimes forget to purchase expensive undergarments to make you feel the way you want to look, eventually.  My doctor gave me the "At Goal" status two months ago, but my body is not "at goal," if it looks like the crap I used to eat!  I have a donut around me, and that's not cool.

So, anyway, I digress.  Em is the local Spanx rep and she referred me to be a test wearer!  How cool is that!  I tried on several styles this morning at her house and I left with a newfound Spanx wardrobe.  I'm not complaining at all.  She also assured me that everyone she's referred to the program now has a Spanx wardrobe, tried, tested and true.  They have several new lines coming out now and their products are only getting better, in my opinion.  Maybe I can help them with some product development for us post-weight loss surgery patients.

I'm a firm believer in compression undergarment's assistance in helping skin to compress back toward the muscle.  Now, I'm not sure if it's possible to avoid plastics entirely, that is dependent on many factors, but it certainly helps posture.  I am going to start wearing my Spanx during Pilates and my elliptical sessions at Anytime Fitness.  Not only do Spanx make you look good, they help your form! 

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Go-To Meals

have developed several Go-To meals that are perfect for my band.  Seriously, when I don't try to eat crap and get away with it, these are the meals that work best for me:

Steak & Bleu Cheese Salad - 4 oz. sliced steak (marinated in garlic powder, Worcestershire sauce, pepper and smoked salt) with 1/4 c. bleu cheese, 1/2 c. iceberg lettuce (I hated iceberg before surgery, now I love it) and Creamy Balsamic dressing (Ken's Steakhouse)

Chicken Taco Salad - 4 oz. chicken (marinated in lime and taco seasoning), 1/2 c. iceberg lettuce, 1/4 c. Mexican mix cheese, Spicy Buttermilk Ranch dressing, salsa, and 1/2 an avocado

Wasabi Salmon and Peanut Sauce -4 oz. salmon marinated in 1 tsp. Wasabi paste, seasoned rice wine vinegar, and ginger (if you have it, but optional), 1/2 c. baby spinach (sometimes I can do it, sometimes I can't) and 1/4 c. peanut satay sauce

Parmesan crusted tilapia - 4 oz. filet of tilapia, crusted in 1 T. Parmesan cheese, 1/2 t. garlic powder, lemon, salt and pepper with cauliflower mash

Honestly, when I do what my doctor tells me and eat protein first with some type of veggie and a dressing, I don't seem to have problems with throwing up as much as when I try to eat things I know I shouldn't eat.

These foods are all dense proteins and light vegetables, which seem to go down fine.  When I try to eat starchy carbs that expand in water, they expand in my stomach and up it comes again.

Most soups I do fine with but the other day I was at Whole Foods and their black bean soup was not so much working for me but I think maybe the cinnamon they put in it set off my taste buds and turned me off of it.  tried the Chicken Enchilada soup too, but I'd already had problems with the black bean so that may have been the culprit.  However, when I ate a few bites of my bf's brisket, that went down and stayed down just fine.

also made Navy Bean soup earlier this week, and it went over well too.  Lots of cubed ham in it, sooooo tasty.

I've been meaning to write out this entry for a while.  If anyone wants more details, recipe wise, comment and I'd be glad to share more.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Test

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Band Adjustment Tracking!

ObesityHelp announced today that they now have a Band Adjustment Tracker!  You have no idea how great this is!  I wish I could pick up the phone and call my doctor to ask what, how much and when all my fills where, but I guess I'll just get them to xerox it next time I'm in the office.  I'm sure I wrote them in blog entries on the dates of the appointment, but I'm terrible about tagging things appropriately.

I will use this though, especially since I've had problems with being too tight.  It even allows you to track your satiety.  The notes section allows you to comment about that daily and whether you had a fill.  Now, I just wish they had a tracker for the feelings of tightness and looseness each day.  Hrmmm... I need to email them. Let me go do that!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Best Salad Ever

I made this on Sunday, and I'm still eating it.  I never thought I'd love soggy salad, but this just changed me.  Now that I can tolerate salad, I can eat a bowl of this that's about a cup of it if I eat slowly. I'm glad that my loosened restriction has made me find something really healthy, quick and easy.  I just added some dried rosemary, basil and marjoram my mom gave me a few days ago from her garden.  The smell of rosemary on my hands is divine.  She also suggested I use the sticks of rosemary for chicken kabobs.  I might have to do that tonight!

This has got to be the best salad I've ever had.

Get a BIG BOWL.... HUGE

Shred one head of lettuce
peel and slice thin, 2 cucumbers
peel and slice thin, 1 large red onion
slice and dice, 4 Roma tomatoes
deseed and slice thin, 1 red pepper
drain and add 1 can of artichokes

Crack a ton of black pepper over it
Pour 1 cup of balsamic vinegar over it
Pour 1/3 cup olive oil over it

Sprinkle 2 teaspoons of Tony Chacerie's or Zatarian's Creole Seasoning
Sprinkle 2 teaspoon garlic powder
Sprinkle 1 teaspoon white pepper
fresh or dried herbs of your choice (rosemary, basil and marjoram from mom's garden)

Toss.  The longer it marinates, the better it tastes.  So, so good.  SOOOOOO GLAD I can now tolerate salad.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

I am eating

and eating... and I feel like I can't stop. This is the most restriction loss I have felt since I got the band. 18 months and I have a sudden loss where I am ravenously eating like I haven't in 20 months. I moved my doctor's appt. from later this month to next week. In the meantime, the nurse said to test the band with a chicken breast. If I can only eat half, I still have good restriction. If I can eat the whole thing, then I'm due for a fill.

We shall see. I'm working on drinking insane amounts of water to counteract the amount of junk food I've been eating. Next task is to get all the junk food out of the house.

Update: I discovered the culprit. Anti-anxiety medication can cause a lot of restriction loss. I hadn't taken it for a long time because I didn't feel stressed but the last week of May was kinda stressful for me. LIFE is stressful, but I normally manage without medication for it. Now I know, there's no reason for it if I can suddenly eat everything, therefore negating every good thing I've done in the last year and a half.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Spaghetti Squash Lasagna

Layer 1:

1 spaghetti squash, cooked and drained well (350 for 45 minutes in the oven, flesh side down in a pan, rubbed with olive oil, cool and scrapped out)
ADD:
1 jar of Ragu, light alfredo sauce

Layer 2:
1 package of mild italian sausage, decased, cooked in 1 T. olive oil
1 1/2 cups Ragu, tomato sauce (any kind, I always get the Parmesan-Romano cheese flavor)

Layer 3:
1 pint of ricotta
2 T pesto
1 egg
1/2 t. pepper
1/2 t. salt or less

Layer Spaghetti Squash, then Sausage and Tomato sauce, then ricotta.  Top with the following:
1 c. mozzarella and 1/2 c. Parmesano-Reggiano cheese

Bake at 375 for 40-45 minutes.  Serve with cheesy garlic bread. 

Monday, April 26, 2010

Write Me...

Today, Jonathan and I sat outside by Le Tour L'Eiffel (it's a restaurant shaped like the Eiffel Tower that is now closed) and had lunch together. It was good to do something a little different for a change, and we'd been talking about having lunch together on a weekday. The weather was immaculate. I missed him a lot this weekend.

I have had two people tell me in the last 24 hours that I should write a cookbook. While I've always wanted to write a book, I think this is a sign I need to start putting my ideas on paper while I search for a job. It is depressing being unemployed, but if I can take all the things I know for my experiences and use my creativity to write a book and make money, why not?

I'm going to start cooking and grocery shopping differently. While I followed a lot of the principles I am implementing, I don't do this ALL the time. A lot of it is inspired by what Jonathan likes. His food tastes are pretty different than mine were. He likes fatty foods as much as the rest of us, but I notice that he likes fresh and flavorful vegetables and meat the best. I'm applying those principles to the cook book I want to write. A whole foods approach, combined with cognitive behavioral therapies and philosophical snippets from yours truly. Wouldn't you buy that? Well, you're reading this, so you might not, but putting my creativity to good use in this format will do something to inspire someone out there.... and maybe they'd even give me money for it. Either way, it is something that is calling me and it has to happen else I will never fully reach my potential.

I feel good about having lost this much weight, but I am still not happy with my body. It kills me that I don't look like a knock out naked and that I'll have to have more surgery in order to get to where I really feel comfortable with myself naked. I don't look at myself. This is another aspect of the amnesia I have about how I got to 353 pounds. I wouldn't pay attention to what my hands and mouth were doing and did not write down what it was I ate and thought I'd lose weight by just thinking about it and letting my will power go at dinner time, or snack time, or anytime for that matter. And when I did finally put my mind to it with exercising almost every day of the week for three years, I hit the wall and could go no further than a loss of 75 or 80 pounds from my highest weight.

So, I'm going to start working on my outline. I've got some great ideas already about the chapters and breakdowns of recipes and variation on different types of special diets, why it's important to know if you're allergic to certain foods, (i.e. dairy, grains, etc for the purpose of disease management) and how to find exercise that works for you.

Nanfit is going to explode. I should only hope!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

This week's challenge: Liquids

Whether you have surgery or not, a week of liquid dieting can be helpful and healthy to relearn how to eat.

Pure foods don't come in packages.  You have to cook them.  There are some quick substitutes to aid in the liquid diet process, but here's what I'm doing this week.

Breakfast
1 CUP Horizon's DHA Whole Milk (OR Almond Breeze - Vanilla) combined with 1/2 cup of frozen fruit puree to make a thick fruity milkshake

Sure, there's no sugar in that, but taste the fruit and milk.  Enjoy it and slip it slowly while thinking "This is all that's necessary for my body to be satisfied."

Lunch

1 CUP Pacific Naturals Creamy Butternut Squash soup combined with UNJURY Chicken Flavor Protein and 1/2 cup plain soy milk, plus 1/8 tsp. each of garlic and onion powder plus a dash of celery salt, plus herbs to flavor, pureed

Mid Afternoon

Muscle Milk Lite - Chocolate Peanut Butter Protein Shake

Dinner

1 CUP Creamy Roasted Red Pepper and Tomato Soup and UNJURY Chicken Soup Protein Powder and 1/2 cup plain Soy Milk, plus 1/8 tsp. each of garlic and onion powder plus a dash of celery salt plus 1 basil leaf, pureed

This is bare bones liquid dieting at it's best.  I bought a selection of fruits and veggies to puree to put in soups and sauces this week.  I'll still be cooking for Jonathan, so mostly, I plan to just puree the veggies and whatever meat I've prepared with stock. 

I think the mentality with liquid dieting is that people go off and ravenously go back to their old eating habits.This whole foods conversion liquid diet I'm working on is going to take the foods you should be eating cooked fresh and pureed in order to bring your taste buds back to infancy.  Use herbs to enhance a combination of  veggies and meat-flavored enhancements.  Only complex carbohydrates, organic milk (cow, goat, nut, etc.)

I will also move this forward by saying I plan on making a lot of recipes in the near future with alternative flours, such as tapioca, garbanzo bean, rice, and etc.  I'm going to start experimenting with these for new treats.  Which reminds me, I really need to work on getting some tahini and garbanzo flour for making some awesome hummus.  I love Bob's Red Mill.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Obesity Help Conference

I would really like to attend the Houston, TX Obesity Help conference.  If you're planning on going, sign up here and help me pay for my ticket!

May 21-22 Costa Mesa CA
http://www.obesityhelp.com/store/action,addtocart/itemId,2801/pcode,pandora/

Aug 20-21 Cincinnati, OH
http://www.obesityhelp.com/store/action,addtocart/itemId,3001/pcode,pandora/

Nov 05-06 Houston, TX
http://www.obesityhelp.com/store/action,addtocart/itemId,2802/pcode,pandora/

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Smothered Chicken

4 chicken breast filets, thawed
1 onion, diced
3 - 4 cloves of garlic, smashed
1 stalk of rosemary, leaved removed and chopped
2 stalks of celery
4 slices of bacon, cut into 1 inch pieces
1 bag of spinach
2 cups of chicken broth
1- 1/2 Worcestershire sauce
1 1/2 Tablespoons of Tony Chacherie's Brown Gravy Mix
Salt and Pepper
Mashed garlic and rosemary in a mortar and pestle, cover chicken with garlic and rosemary mixture. Toss bacon in skillet and fry for 5-7 minutes on medium high heat. Add celery and onion, turn to medium heat for 5-7 minutes. Make space for chicken breast by piling bacon, onion and celery to one side, then covering each breast until all are in the pan. Add 1 cup of chicken broth. Cook one each side for 8-9 minutes. Add 1 cup of chicken stock and entire bag of spinach. Add salt and pepper to taste. Cover and turn to medium low heat for 12 minutes, flipping chicken breasts at the half way interval. Set breasts aside on a plate, and add Worcestershire and brown gravy mix and cook on medium high for 2-3 minutes. Return breasts to skillet, ans serve with Rice A Roni, for those carb lovers.

I made this tonight and made the Parmesan Cheese Rice A Roni for Jonathan. I eat the rice too, but no more than a 1/4 of a cup. It was still extremely tasty and I'm looking forward to lunch tomorrow!

Serve.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Honesty...

Let's talk about something serious.  Let's talk about how honest we are with ourselves about what we put into our mouths.  How much self efficacy do you have?  When your medical professionals tell you write down what you eat, how often do you do this thoroughly and completely?  I know I don't.  I know I don't want to see on paper what I put in my mouth because I don't want to own up to the fact that I shouldn't have eat half the crap I ate that day. It's not every day, but at least 2-3 days out of the week, I don't pay attention to what I know I should do.

I remember when I was 9 or 10, it was girl scout cookie season and I ate many, too many boxes of cookies my mom ended up paying for.  Those damn lemon sandwich cookies got the best of me.  I gave into them because food was my crutch. I didn't realize that I was drowning my sorrows in food, but I was.  How can I blame myself, food is so very very good.

I feel like now that I can control the portion amounts more easily, I have made much better choices in what i eat.  I eat reasonably and most of the time less than my body needs to survive.  I haven't been counting carbs and fat and sugar as I am suppose to though.  I do look at the labels, but I don't write it down.  If something is high in carbs and it's something I want to eat, I eat half of what the label's serving size is and it usually satisfies the craving.  But generally, our meals are no longer centered around carbs.  If I make pasta, I don't eat it.  I don't even want it anymore because I know it will just expand in my stomach (and make me sick!) and on my waistline.

My worse habit right now though has to do with water consumption.  I will go without drinking water for hours, and then mealtime rolls around and bam, I eat, I get thirsty, and boom.  The food comes up because I couldn't drink my water before or after.... I felt the urge to flush it down once there was food in there.  That's not what I'm suppose to do.

So, I really feel the need to tackle this problem with my inability to write down what i'm eating.  Here we go with today...

8AM - 1 Yoplait Light Red Velvet Cake Yogurt -
12PM - Onion Rings - Mom made them, I probably had about 1/4 an onion, tossed with 1/16 c. flour, salt, and pepper fried in peanut oil.  I don't even know how to calculate the calories on this, c'est la vie.  With 2 T of Ketchup..... Those calories didn't matter so much when it all came back up in the bathroom later.

3:30PM - The icing off a cupcake with Noah.... 2-3 Tablespoons of white sugary goodness.  Who knows what the calorie count is on that!

7:30PM - Chicken, BBQ sauce, and Cheddar Cheese pizza from Dominos, sans crust, extra chicken; two slices 6-7 slices of chicken total, appx. 2 T bbq sauce, 3-4 T cheese

I definitely must say I did better at the beginning and the end of the day when it comes to protein and food choices.  Yesterday I did well at night with the Pork Tenderloin, but didn't eat all day. Oh, and the coffee kept me up!  Note to self: when cooking with caffeine, schedule meal at noon!

Tomorrow is another day.  I will be home all day working on the job search and figuring out my life.  My mom assures me that everything will be alright.  I am trying not to freak out or stress about things, but right now, it's all I've got.  I know what I want though, and that's to be my own boss.  I really want to work on either obtaining my LPC license and/or ACE certification so I can work with weight loss clients on the extra issues I face.  Food addiction and recovery.  I think food addiction is the hardest thing to overcome because you need it to survive.  Being a foodie in the greatest food city in the world is tough.  But I'm going to thrive in my uphill battle.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Coffee Crusted Pork Tenderloin with Mango Salsa

1 pork tenderloin
3 T Black Strap molasses
1 tsp. garlic powder
1 tsp. onion powder
1 tsp. pepper
1 cayenne pepper
1/2 tsp. salt
3 tsp. Medium Roast coffee

Put tenderloin in a plastic zip lock bag. Add molasses. Refrigerate for 2-3 hours.  Blend all remaining ingredients in a blender or food processor.  Dust pork tenderloin with the coffee mixture.

Grill pork over coals for 20 minutes on each side or Bake at 375 for 25 minutes, turning half way through.

Mango Salsa

1 mango, peeled and sliced
1 tomato, sliced
1 onion, chopped
1 bunch of cilantro, minced

Combine all ingredients.

Assemble pork tenderloin on a bed of greens and add mango salsa.

It's been a while...

I keep telling myself I am going to keep up with this blog, but I have been overwhelmed with the job search process that it has fallen by the way side.  I have also been helping my mom redecorate her house, so that's taken up some time - I have also moved into a bigger place, which happened about a month ago and I couldn't be happier about it!

This month, I was featured on the Obesity Help newsletter.  I have to be honest, I didn't notice until Suzette of http://www.lap-band-surgery-site.com pointed it out to me, even though I did open and read some of the newsletter.  I have a little attention problem sometimes - I don't have any... especially on the internet, I'm always - Oh, let me go look this up, and I get to the computer and I've already forgotten what it was I wanted to look up.

I went to the doctor last week.  I'm 110 lbs down, 45 lbs to go.  So, since my highest weight of 353 pounds in March 2004, I have lost 162 lbs! OMG.  Yeah, seriously can't even fathom.  I have lost more weight than what I'll weigh when I'm done.  Rock on.  My goal weight is 145, which at 190, means I have 45 to go.  Yippeee!  Anyway, back to the doctor's appointment.  Apparently, I'm too tight right now.  I have a cough, related to the night reflux/gastritis and sinusitis because I have stomach gases coming up my esophagus at night.  I didn't want to get an unfill though because 1) it would cost me and 2) as soon as I lose another 10 lbs, I'll need that fill back... so I took the low road of waiting it out even though it is slowing my weight loss.  I'd rather lose it slowly and permanently than spend $150 right now to spend another $150 later to put it back.  Yes, I'm frugal and unemployed and I keep praying that if I lose it slow enough, my skin will retract.... I already know that it isn't going to, I was 300 lbs for the majority of my adult life.  Besides, I recently found out that I will have the money to do those surgeries once I'm down to my goal.  It's not a "win the lotto" I can predict the future, but the very thing that aided in my weight gain is going to pay out to help me with the final product.  Thanks Mom and Dad.  (No, I'm not blaming them for my weight gain!)

Now, if only that perfect job would land in my lap.  I'm really thinking of seeking out a position as a weight loss surgery patient counselor.  I am going to contact the hospitals in my area and see if there's a need for this.  I might have a intern part time, but it would be a good fit for my personal and professional experience to get licensure.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Ham and Asparagus Strata Recipe

Ham and Asparagus Strata Recipe

I'll have to try this out with some variations... Tonight, I'm making a Mushroom, Sausage, and Rosemary Frittata.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Chipotle Lime Cilantro Vinegarette/Marinade

Mix all ingredients together:
2 Limes, juiced
1 small can of chipotle salsa or deseeded & pureed chipotles in adobe sauce
1/3 cup Olive Oil
1 1/2 tsp. cumin
1/3 c. Agave Syrup or 3-4 T Splenda
1/2 tsp. salt
Cracked black pepper to taste
1 1/2 tsp. Onion Powder
2 tsp. Garlic powder or 1 T. minced garlic

I'm currently marinading pork chops for tomorrow night's dinner in this and will serve it on top a bed of greens with a Green Goddess (Avocado & Sour Cream dressing.)

On a roll

I'm registered for both the Crescent City Classic (April 3rd/10k) and the March for Babies race (April 24th/3.5m) now I just have to find a road race in March to do as well. Feeling motivated.  Getting my ass in gear.  Praying hard that I won't have this much time on my hands for long but I get in the training groove quickly.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Afternoon at the Park

Hannah and I went to City Park and walked the track this afternoon.  It was a good walk/jog.  I jogged only about 1/4 of a mile though because I was in my fit flops and didn't feel like changing into my tennis shoes.

I went to the St. Joseph Altar meeting and got many nice compliments on my weight loss.  Those folks haven't seen me in a year, so it was good to hear that.  Mom volunteered me to make a bunch of stuff for the altar.  I guess that means quality time in Hahnville next week.

I picked up Mona's gyro plates for Jonathan and I for dinner tonight.  Yummy.  I ate about half, and put the rest up for lunch tomorrow. Hummus and gyro meat only, I don't attempt the salad or the bread.

Going to Hahnville tomorrow.  Mom said I needed a haircut, so if she's paying, then I'm going.  Might take the sewing machine back with me so I can take in some clothes this week.  I need to keep myself busy.  I could never stay at home every day.  I would drive myself bat shit crazy in no time.

Goal #1 Accomplished

I cleared the pantry and fridge of all the unhealthy crap, threw out the leftovers, and will now take the dog for a walk in the park once I get myself together and put my shoes on.

I also really should register for the Crescent City Classic and buy myself a new pair of running shoes.  I really would like to jog half of the Classic this year and work up to eventually being able to jog most of it in the next two years.  I can do it.  I need to do it because I can.  I don't have the knee troubles other people who've lost weight have, I think in this instance, my knees were strong enough to support my weight and it did not cause problems.  I just need to be careful of injuries.

The weather is nice and cool today.  It's a good day to get started on some training.  I have the time.  I don't really have the money, but an investment in my good support on my feet is a good one and needs to be done, again, to prevent injury.  A slow jog to start.

Down with the sugar!

I admit it.  I am addicted to sugar and fat.  Specifically, peanut butter, chocolate, and ice cream.  Now, I have refused to give anything up for Lent this year because I want to use the excuse that I can't eat this or that, blah, blah blah.... but I've noticed, when I eat the good protein options laid out for me by my physician, the food usually stays down when chewed well.  These food items include:  sausage from red beans sans rice no sauce, hard boiled eggs with salt, pepper, Olive Oil Mayo and Mustard with WW crackers or Nut crackers (half a serving, mind you like 8 crackers), the veggies, chicken and broth from Campbell's chunky soup sans noodles, and other sources of meat and cheese and veggie minimal carb diet.

But I've been bad.  Ice cream, made brownies last night that are not even that good that I need to throw out NOW (I put extra chocolate chips and marshmallows in them - too sweet for my tastes), and while I'm sure most people would like them, I am not that big a fan of brownies anyway.  Jonathan didn't want them because he's not a huge fan of sweets anyway... though I have found a weakness of his - Heath Bar Breyer's Ice Cream.

I digress.  I am admitting I still eat bad at times.  I had a Reese's peanut butter heart I bought a few days ago from the Valentine's clearance and I have another that I am promptly feeling compelled to throw away.... Along with all the other sugar and junk food in the house.  I am going to have to change the way I cook for Jonathan.  Though, I have realized that he is happy with oatmeal most of the time.  I can't eat oatmeal, but I can eat Campbell's chunky soup, eggs, and soft veggies.  I don't need sugar.  I love butter.  But I can give her up too if necessary.  I need to refocus.  I need to work out.  These last 40 pounds are not going to come off without a fight.  So, I must fight the temptations and do what I know I need to do in order to make this happen.  The summer is calling and I want to get outdoors and make the most of it.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Support Group

After a year of absence, I went to the Lapband support group at West Jeff tonight.  It wasn't bad, but I was the youngest person there.  The only guy in the group at the end of the meeting was checking me out and asking me if I was single... I don't think because he was interested, but rather I think he had someone in mind he wanted to set me up with... I informed him I had a SO that I lived with but thanks.  It was a little weird.  I will go back though, because they seemed like nice people and I learned a few things.  Mostly, I learned that aside from my ice cream problem, I am doing pretty well with my weight loss. That was reassuring.  I might go back next month just so they don't talk about me.  I did notice that they talked about the people who weren't there or people who'd come in the past and flaunted their loss but had done it in an unhealthy way.  I try to balance my unhealthy choices by about 1/4 of the healthy choices and I still lose.  I even lose when I live on ice cream.  However, I made red beans and rice tonight (sans rice for me) and it didn't go over so well.  It wasn't the sausage though - it was the beans.  I've noticed that dense protein settles better than creamy stuff.  So, I will continue to stick with the protein for the meals.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Living Simply

I have resolved to make an effort to live a more simple, organic (in the metaphysical sense as well as the environmental) and green life. I joined Melaluca, even though I thought that it was a little like a pyramid, but when I tried their products at Lisa's, I was truly IMPRESSED. I made my first order yesterday and I am really looking forward to a gradual transition to only using their products so when I go to the farmer's market or grocery, I am only purchasing food stuffs. It's amazing the things we can live without.


I plan to do two major overhauls in February - clear out and clean up. I have several boxes from Austin of paper records and books I don't need. I am going to list the books on Amazon and try to sell them, whcih I've done successfully before and made some decent money. And, I am going to get rid of the furniture I have at the factory that I don't want anymore. This means I'll need to donate and/or doing a garage sale in March or April. I admit, in the past, I have donated things because I feel better about myself when I've given something I don't use to charity - lately, it's felt really good to give away the clothes that no longer fit.

I'd like to recommit to blogging at nanfit.com too. My original intention was to blog about the lifestyle changes and exercise, but I haven't exercised all that much this year other than walks with Hannah and Jonathan in the evenings. I did my two mile jog on Wednesday night, and that felt good. I've got to start following the CCC10k training schedule this week to get ready for the race. If anyone is interested in joining me, that would be awesome. This will be my 9th year! I'm hoping that once the parades start, I'll walk from my office to Jonathan's office between 5-6 some days, maybe even as far as Lisa's, and have him pick me up there.

Once Lent begins, the weather warms up and I feel compelled to give something back to the Lord, I will start leaving work at 5:00pm and walking Audubon Park and City Park once each week until about 7 or 7:30. Ambitious, since I haven't been that committed to exercise in the last year despite the huge weight loss. Eating less really does do the trick, but I've hit the plateau of doom and it's necessary now.

Enough rambling. There are errands to run, places to go. People to see.